Post by fluteandbassoon on Nov 6, 2005 12:40:07 GMT
Hi All
I am in a local county orchestra, playing 2nd bassoon. But I am not enjoyiing it anymore, and as a revery *friendly* person I am starting to hate playing my bassoon. There are several reasons for this.
Firstly, the conductor has something against woodwind players and everytime the orchestra has to be stopped it is teh woodwind sections fault and not anyone elses.
Secondly, every week I am trying my best and the conductor seems to think I am not. I am the lowest ability in the WHOLE orchestra. The conductor keeps having a go at me in front of the whole orchestra and it is ruining my slef confidence on my bassoon- and even my flute playign is getting less confident. (Even my bassoon teacher has noticed my confidence has decreased over this term.)
Lastly, I have been to every single rehearsal. Unlike other palyers. This week, a very close relative was involved in a car crash on the M1, on firday, so I did not get to bed till the early hours. On the saturday (orchestra is on saturday mornings), I had the choice to be with my cousin, but I went to orchestra because I made a commintent to be there every saturday morning.
Also, the condutor asked whether any had been practisng, I said I had but he doesn't believe me.
I was sat in rehearsals crying on saturday morning with alot of peopple sblack personing at me and I was nearly at the point of walking out. I just don't know what to do. I have made loads of friends, but I feel really guilty that I am not enjoying it, as my parents are paying for me to go. I don't want to play my bassoon anymore but I am pushing myself to practise. I am trying best.
I don't know what to do.
A Very Upset Ceri
I am in a local county orchestra, playing 2nd bassoon. But I am not enjoyiing it anymore, and as a revery *friendly* person I am starting to hate playing my bassoon. There are several reasons for this.
Firstly, the conductor has something against woodwind players and everytime the orchestra has to be stopped it is teh woodwind sections fault and not anyone elses.
Secondly, every week I am trying my best and the conductor seems to think I am not. I am the lowest ability in the WHOLE orchestra. The conductor keeps having a go at me in front of the whole orchestra and it is ruining my slef confidence on my bassoon- and even my flute playign is getting less confident. (Even my bassoon teacher has noticed my confidence has decreased over this term.)
Lastly, I have been to every single rehearsal. Unlike other palyers. This week, a very close relative was involved in a car crash on the M1, on firday, so I did not get to bed till the early hours. On the saturday (orchestra is on saturday mornings), I had the choice to be with my cousin, but I went to orchestra because I made a commintent to be there every saturday morning.
Also, the condutor asked whether any had been practisng, I said I had but he doesn't believe me.
I was sat in rehearsals crying on saturday morning with alot of peopple sblack personing at me and I was nearly at the point of walking out. I just don't know what to do. I have made loads of friends, but I feel really guilty that I am not enjoying it, as my parents are paying for me to go. I don't want to play my bassoon anymore but I am pushing myself to practise. I am trying best.
I don't know what to do.
A Very Upset Ceri